Feeling pretty unusual..

sighh, I am not feeling what im suppose to feel like..Should be out clubbing tonight but feeling a little left out..Still in a dillema..should I go or should I not? Starcity or sublime? Arghh!!! I need to study! Part of the reason why I am in such situation is because I failed my last quiz for COMP2160, scored nothing, no one knows bout it except me, I think I am not on the track anymore..where are the motivation cells in my brain? I feel like dying..I cant breathe..I am struggling, no one is there to help! I better get changed and head down to starcity..I dont wanna stay at home..I wanna go shopping! I wanna get drunk and do silly stuff! I miss the old times...there would not be a chance to turn back time so what are there to think about? Come to think of it, I am quite bad in making friends, I realise I dont have friends for life, is it just me because I've gone through too much things in life? eg: backstabbed by people, and backstabbing people too..Issit because of all that? Are there really friends for life? *confused*..
til laterz..