All emo-ed

Time flies, happy times make me feel like my holiday just went past by a blink. I am getting all emo-ed now, not wanting to leave home because it's not the same anymore as previous years. I get my freedom and I have sufficient $$ supply.

Thinking of going back, looking for a job and work my ass off do scare me a little. I guess this is a tough change for me, to change from one phase to another.I keep my fingers crossed, hoping everything to go smooth.

Speaking of being emo-ed, I am kinda having a bit of hard time dealing with my own feelings towards people around me. I seriously hate being in my current state, not knowing what exactly is bothering me but my mind says #$@$%%^$%#%#$. So annoyed, so frustrated..

To my family and friends, would like to decidate this to you guys although not everyone will read it..
Dad & Mum, thanks for tolerating all my shit.
Vincent & Dong dong, thanks for all the fashion consult and the caring session.
Vinkay, thanks for always looking out for me and save my ass from kena bang by mum and dad.
Weiwei, I hope everything goes well with u when you go to melbourne, I hope to catch up with you soon and I am sorry I couldnt spend much time with you this holiday
Winnie, I cant even think of a word to describe our friendship, I thank you for always being there for me, anytime, anywhere. I really do hope to see you soon, I will miss you sooooo much!

To Mahjong Inc..
Jo, will be seeing u soon and I've gotten the guys to eat on your behalf!!
Jen, thanks for driving me around all the time, the next time I see you we'll be doing lotsa shit together, bear with me if I do get cranky..
Miow, enjoy the rest of your holidays in KL and thanks for the car ride to jen's
Min, by the time I leave u'll be starting to get a busier life, CNY, friends meet up, but please do not forget about the poor jin suffering in sydney.
Dom, again I have to thank you for being my listener, my driver and my mamak kaki. Thanks for always being there for me and I hope you don't get as much shit anymore from me.
Man, please dont MIA anymore..!!
June, am glad that we've cleared things up, hope things will turn better when I see you
Ju, the moretox, stop drinking and speading so much love, not good for uu!!
To you guys that will still be in malaysia, although I will be seeing you guys in no time but I do wanna let you guys know that you all have definitely played a big part during my holidays. My 2006 summer holiday would have been so different without you people. Thanks for always driving me around and I promise you I will be your(ju, dom, jen) driver whenever possible when I can drive!

Damn this feeling....*sobs* I dont wanna go back now....please bear with my kiddoness as I am EMO!

Look at the people around you, are they all worthwhile for your time and concerns to keep the friendship when sometimes they don't give a damn about your feelings?

If they bother to know, they probably have already asked..
If they bother to tell, they wouldn't have hide it from the beginning..

If my life is meant to be so dramatic, I will challenge it til my last breath..

Friend/ Best friend

How does everyone define "BEST FRIEND", say if you tell others you have a best friend, under what category does he/she fit to be your best friend? It could be the trust, or same interest, or his/her personality just clicks with yours so well.

I am sure everyone has a list of them in their mind right about now. Here's a question, of all the categories that they fit in, which is the one which will cause you to start doubting whether the friendship really exists, whether the particular person really is your best friend?

"Searching for a best friend is just as difficult as looking for a partner for life", my best friend once told me, I couldn't agree more than that; when you and your friend have too much conflicts, you know he/she is not the person you're looking for.

In my personal context, I believe best friend is someone whom I can really count on, at good and bad times, a person that understands what I am thinking, accepts who I am for my good and bad, listens and gives proper advices, and of course all mentioned above applies to him/her.

To whoever that's reading this, all above were written as some late night personal thoughts, it probably has got to do with somebody but do not doubt too much about your stand in my heart. If I open up to talk to you, you should know you stand close to my heart; either or you might want to stay away because you should know it better than me why I am drifting away, there is always a reason, and the only way to change this is to work on that reason that have caused us to stay apart, but again, if you do think that I am wrong and not wanting to put an extra effort to change it, really, I dont mind losing a friend like you.

Good night!

Just as the 1st member of Mahjong Inc was busy digging her head into law books, the 5th Mahjong Inc member was rotting at somewhere upnorth, the 7th and 8th forever MIA members still decided to MIA and the rest of the Mahjong incoperated crew decided to have a dinner @ 1 Utama.

As usual, Mr Julian Pancing Lam caused this time around, Mr. Dom Vain Heah to be late at the selected restaurant. Besides that, Mr. Julian Pancing Lam has also caused Miss. Joy to purchase a RM109.90 skirt from ZARA due to his late arrival.

During the meal, Mr Julian Pancing Lam made full use of his talk-cock skills, which lasted all the way to KTZ(Kei Tak Sek)@ SS2. Also, not to forget, Mr. Julian Pancing Lam also spread abit of love of his to the innocent young lady who was working at the counter in the restaurant. How sinful!!

Below is an attached photo of the outing..

SS2 Loves the 2 Mahjong Inc members so much, Miss Jo Jo Tan aka Big Foot & Mr. Dom Dom Heah aka Do Mei Lee, they've set up 2 shops named Bigfoot Reflexology & Domeilee Beauty for them, respectively..

Miss Big Foot Tan & Mr. How Beautiful(translated from Do Mei Lee) Heah, I hope you two enjoy these photos that are speically dedicated for you two..LOL

Til laterz

The freaky night

Tonight I decided to sit back and look at myself in the past one year, are there any changes? Looking back at Year2006, what have I done?

• Graduated with a Bachelor of Science(Computer Science) Degree
• Given myself a better life
• Met a bunch of new people, significant ones such as the Mahjong Inc
• Learned to play better mahjong
• Friendship between min(moy) & I got way soo much better
• Met a friend whom I never thought would be someone I will be counting on..darling heah(*LOL*)

The more bimbotic things that I did..

• Lotsa shopping

There were so much more things that I did, but I just cant recall each and every one of them now, I already had some thought about it before I start writing this post but they flew away once I got to the point, blame the alco memory.

***WARNING***

The below content is quite freaky so do not highlight if you dont wish to read!!

Last night was freaky, ever feel that you're pinned down by someone while u're asleep? It happened to me last night, I know it is scientifically proven that this state is to prevent us from sleep walking but worst was when I felt that someone was patting me on my hand trying to wake me up but I couldnt move at all. When I was able to turn over, I almost fell off the bed but I felt someone pushing me back onto the bed and I remember holding on to something to get back to bed..I opened my eyes but I didnt see anyone..I was too scared but I went back to sleep anyway..

I havent really been posting since I came back, been speding lotsa time with family and friends, its a good sign, I am starting to love them more..hee! Nonsense are on its way, so I'd better go..