Having my own chill out session in my room, happens once in a while but not very often..drink when I feel like it, go to bed when I think I've reached the level when I feel numb and cant take it anymore..part of life maybe..I dont know when I start to drink alone, dont know when I started enjoy drinking alone, without anyone bothering me, just sit down here all alone and have a few glass myself..

Called my bestest friend- winnie, had one long conversation with her, about everything. ups and downs..things that cant be expressed, but she seems to know what I wanna say..Wanna thanks to her to be by my side all the time, all the time when I need someone who I can really talk to..Not to say I dont appreciate my friends here in Sydney but I just feel more comfortable talking to her, prolly because I've known her for quite some time and she knows me way much better.

okays I am way too high to type anything more...shall end here!!=]]